I surrender to you, oh Lord.
The more I learn and grow, I feel growing pressure to hold on… to keep.
To put all my eggs in my own basket…
…and rely on my own strength and understanding.
The feeling of angst… of helplessness… is an indication I am relying on my own power.
The dichotomy keeps me inquisitive.
We are to step into our own power, and yet lean not on our own understanding.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart.” Proverbs 3:5
Some days are free of fear… as I swoop and coast and glide and soar.
Others, the fear clamps down and holds its everlasting grip.
I question what is real…my fear or my freedom.
We cling to the known and yet we know the magic happens in the unknown.
What are we so afraid of?
NO ONE REALLY KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN.
As an intuitive and connect-the-dotter… I look for patterns and notice signs of messages.
I am also a recovering fixer… so I click away at how I can mold, conform, create, control and fix a situation.
Running through the mud of my spiritual path, I notice these things and be not bound by them.
I sense things… and remind myself that fear will always try to hijack my peace.
Notice… and then let go.
Why is it so hard to let go?
Is it lack of faith?
Is it attachment to control and outcome?
Our patterns and habits may be hard to break.
Very good news indeed.
May we “beat the drum of the solution, not the problem.” – Abraham
So here I am, again, trying to solve the dilemma of this time-space reality.
“If we just do this, we will be fine!”
And that is true…
… but life throws curve ball after curve ball… and it’s only getting more intense, as we become more attuned to our own alignment and sensitive to the world around us.
I hear the response of our angels and guides right now, saying:
“But you will get more help.”
What this means is that as things seem to be getting more intense, more difficult, more emotionally charged and helpless, our back up is already here… they have been called and they are armed and ready.
They are our guardian angels, our arch angels, our spirit guides, our enlightened masters, beings from other dimensions, all those who have come before us… our loved ones who have passed.
We have a whole team of beings who have an invested interest in us.
We do not have to go at it alone. We are never alone.
I read this prayer to our family this morning, a back-to-school prayer my grandma gave my daughter:
Loving God,
each day as I step further into my future, give me the courage, knowledge, and patience that I need. Help me to love you with all my heart, soul and strength.
Remind me that you are always with me and that you will never lead me into anything that you won’t lead me through.
Thank you for the gift of my life, the many talents you have given me, and for the opportunity of education. May the way I live be my gift back to you. Amen.
Remind me that you are always with me and that you will never lead me into anything that you won’t lead me through.
We must practice our faith and remember every day. We must surround ourselves with positive, soul-driven like-minded friends and influences who will remind us of our connection to God… not remind us of our fear and separation from God.
My prayer for us today is that we may feel God’s presence and know that although we have no control of the future, we can set the intention for peace, love and connection today. We can cultivate a relationship with God so that we feel calm when we think of the unknown. May we know that help is with us, and may we know that there is nothing we would be lead into that we wouldn’t be lead through.
Have a beautiful week and thank you for reading.
God bless.
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