How is our experience eerily familiar….
The diagnosis
2020 has been both challenging and carrying an energy of something larger than we ever thought possible.
When we realized our world was about to change as we knew it… there were a range of emotions… shock… denial… sadness, anger, fear…. lots and lots of fear.
And yet… everything was normal.
We turn to our left and our kids are laughing and playing.
…. we turn to our right and the sun is shining brightly.
Although everything remained the same, it was becoming clear that our world would never be the same again.
The follow up
We remain optimistic….
…. we remain healthy and looking forward to the moments we get to celebrate.
Our fears are confirmed, and nothing has changed.
…. in fact, it appears to be getting worse.
We continue to look to our right and our left and see the world carrying on without us… the sun is still rising and our children are still laughing, and yet…. fear as swallowed us whole…. and all we have left… is our breath…. and our hope.
The waiting
Oh, the waiting….
…. oh the dwelling in the unknown.
“Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait and wait without anxiety.” – A Course in Miracles.
Some moments we feel joy…. and others, we feel immense fear.
The world is spinning and we look forward to the day we can rest.
…. in the known.
Diagnosis during pregnancy 