What’s light got to do, got to do with it?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson

When I was in middle school, I saw this printed on an 8 x 10 white sheet of paper, taped to the back of a teacher’s door.

It always resonated with me.

I included it as my email signature as soon as I got my first email address… hotmail, maybe?

The words spoke to me.

Even when I thought it was written by Nelson Mandela. It wasn’t.

Now, 15 years later, I have read a number of Marianne Williamson’s books, and recently saw her speak live when she visited our city.

This message resonated with me at a young age, as I reflected on the idea that my light was more powerful than my darkness.

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An internal flame burned within my cells, as I felt the magnitude of the undefined.

…. an essence that only I could articulate…

… no one, including my teachers, my peers, my friends, my family….

… there was something within me that could not be defined…

… it could not be labeled…

… it could not be contained…

… it would not be contained…

This thing described as my “light” and this other thing described as my “darkness”…

…. that which was my light was actually the more powerful of the two…

Everything that I felt about myself that I was too afraid to express, or embrace or represent… or step in to…

Was my light.

And it could be more powerful than all the negative things I felt about myself…. or others said about me, or saw in me.

That I was in fact more of this light and less of this darkness, and even if I wasn’t, it didn’t matter.

… as long as I had a little bit of the light….

… it was enough.

I remember sensing this clarity… feeling this sense of what I would now refer to as empowerment…

I remember feeling a sense of validation… receiving permission to be…

…be bright…

…be magnificent…

…be beautiful…

…be glorious…

…be me…

…whoever that was…

…and it was actually a bad thing (referred to now as “doing a dis-service)… to be anything less than.

…. it would be bad if I didn’t shine bright.

I had a responsibility…. and an obligation to be bright.

Now, 15 years later, I know what the rest of the words in Marianne’s message mean… I know more about fear, manifesting, giving others permission to shine, being a child of God, being powerful beyond measure…

There is a peace in knowing that we are children of God.

…. we have a right to be, a responsibility to be here…

We are granted this right by our divine Creator… and that is a right that is above and beyond anything on this earth plane.

… and that feels expansive, empowering…. and magical.

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