The baby I was sure would never come…



Truly Grace Margaret Watson…

Born Friday, February 7, 2014 at 2:38am…

At her home….with her Mom and Dad as both vessel and deliverers…

I certainly, however, do not feel like I delivered her…

I strongly believe, rather, that I genuinely (and physically) received her…

Her dark hair and features like her big brother, made me immediately think she was a boy…

I was surprised, pleasantly surprised and appreciative…

…of it all….

Week 1


I send my deepest love and appreciation to my family for being so supportive and helping Sean and I with our housework, self-care, and entertaining our children…

Our gratitude is immense and we strongly send our thanks…

I find myself just staring at her….sending my love to her….being blessed by her…

My comfort level with her is very high and I chalk it up to an intentional pregnancy…. and a looonng pregnancy…. (God does give us 9 months of living with baby so that we are attached to them and take care of them)….

I’m different now than I was when Charlie came to us….as I am since Theo was born…

I feel at peace and my gratitude seems to dominate other feelings of anxiety, stress and worry… I know it will not last…

This is a concept I’m not sure I fully embraced before….

Just as my pregnancy did not last….and I was SURE that it was going to…. my life with these babies will not last, either…

Charlie will grow older and I won’t be reminding her to wash her hands after she sneezes, or teaching her how to best communicate with her brother so they both stay out of trouble…

Theo will be fully potty-trained one day…the tantrums will stop and the time-outs will cease… He will start going to school and he won’t be home with me as much…

The baby will slowly, right before my eyes, without me even noticing…. grow older and change in so many ways… the night time feedings will stop and we  will all get our rest back…

These moments that seem so intense….the kids are battling, everyone needs attention…it feels like this moment is going to last forever and my next move is going to be set into eternity and affect my childrens’ well-being for the rest of their lives… Discipline feels so critical…. it feels so important and drawn out….

I can remember that these moments will pass….just as my contractions were painful but temporary…. and Truly actually did come into this world…. I’m not pregnant forever…

This pregnancy has taught me that pain is temporary…. being uncomfortable is temporary… stages of our lives are temporary….and our moments are temporary….

There is nothing we can’t make it through…. time allows for us to pass through it….it is our gift… and at times…it doesn’t feel like a gift…. but it always is…

The greatest gift I can give myself is the appreciation of and my experience of time…..

I can choose to take my moments as they come and remember that they are temporary…. our actions may echo on and certainly make a difference in our relationships and our legacy….and our children…

I vow to remember that our moments will pass and the frustration will cease… this belief doesn’t always make things easier, but now that I feel its presence more in my heart, it feels a little easier to let things go…. be less quick to anger…show appreciation more….

Thank you again to everyone for your love and support.



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